You're everything I thought you never were
And nothing like I thought you could have been
But still you live inside of me
So tell me how is that

You're the only one I wish I could forget
The only one I love not to forgive
And though you break my heart
You're the only one

And though there are time that I hate you cause I can't erase
The times that you hurt me and put tears on my face
And even now while I hate you it pains me to say
I know I'll be there at the end of the day

I don't wanna be without you babe
I don't wanna broken heart
Don't wanna breathe without you babe
I don't wanna play that part

I know that I love you but let me just say
I don't wanna love you in no kinda way
No, no, I don't wanna broken heart
I don't wanna play the broken hearted girl.

Something that I feel I need to say
But up till now I've always been afraid
That you would never come around
And still I wanna put this out

You say you got the most respect for me
But sometimes I feel you're not deserving of me
And still you're in my heart
But you're the only one

And yes there are time when I hate you but I don't complain
Cause I've been afraid that you would walk away
Oh, but now I don't hate you, I'm happy to say
that I will be there at the end of the day

Is it a love song then?

It's so sad that this has to be your song about her until now.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JnIv50OIr-A&feature=channel

I should have seen it coming when the roses died
Should have seen the end of summer in your eyes
I should have listened whenn you said goodnight
You really meant goodbye
Baby, ain't it funny, how you never ever learn to fall
You're really on your knees, when you think you're standing tall
But only fools are know-it-alls and I played that fool for you

I cried and I cried
There were nights that I died for you, baby.
I tried and I tried
to deny that your love drove me crazy, baby.

If the love that I got for you is gone
If the river I cried ain't that long
Then I'm wrong
Yeah, I'm wrong
This ain't a love song.

Baby, I thought you and me would stand the test of time
Like we got away with the perfect crime but
We were just a legend in my mind
I guess that I was blind
Remember those nights dancing at the masquerade
The clowns wore smile that wouldn't fade
You and I were the renegades, some things never change

It made me so mad cause I wanted it bad for us baby
Now it's so sad that whatever we had, ain't worth saving
If the love that I got for you is gone
If the river I cried ain't that long
then I'm wrong
Yeah I'm wrong
This ain't a love song

If the pain I'm feeling so strong
is the reason I'm holding on
Then I'm wrong
Yeah I'm wrong
This ain't a love song.

Sigh. What do I do?

Ghosts of Pasts Past

A haunted look
A dark shadow
A glance behind
A scan around
Tainted home.

Lapsing into silence
Fading smiles
Dying laughter
Echoing dreams
Tainted memories.

Tired eyes
Weary shoulders
Heavy spirit
Draggy footsteps
Tainted happiness.

Shackled wrists
Closed heart
Imprisoned mind
Sealed lips
Tainted freedom.

Lost wishes
Broken dreams
Empty hopes
Crippled wings
Tainted love.

Jealous words
Angry gestures
Burning hate
Cold fury
Tainted present.

When will I have you for myself?

lol. this brings so much memories back.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OVy8h4jr-l4&feature=related

you can look into my eyes and pretend all you want
but I know
I know
your love is just a
lie.
It's nothing but a
lie.

I'm gonna let you play my part
So you can feel a broken heart
somebody's gonna cry
but it won't be my tears
not anymore
so watcha think about that?

Cancer

Such an ugly word.
Never causing joy.
Hence never received with joy.
Deceiving.
Sickening.
Fatal.
Only a fraction survive the ordeal.
But are never really the same again.